Thursday, June 30, 2005

Changes Galore!

Just adding some links today. Maybe some pics of our cats. Changed the look of my blog to something not so dark.

Trying to decide which links to include. There are quite a few that I check out - if I were to list them all, well you'd be scrolling down for a while.

Monday, June 27, 2005

Just Playin' Around

I'm a terrible patient! LOL

I decided to not start taking bcp yesterday, even though at my first RE appt they told me to.
I'm currently on hold with another RE to make an appt to get a 2nd opinion.
Going through my last appt in my head, there were a few questions that I want answered. Mainly, why didn't they mention anything about HA?
I'm gathering all of my research and will be walking in ready this time. I'm not going to be "shoo-ed off" with the gain weight and quit exercising bullshit.

So my next appt is in about a month. Not too bad considering that there's only 2 RE's in this city.

On a lighter note, my DH and I had a really good weekend. It was probably the most relaxing in a long time. Went swimming, redecorated our home a bit, and then stayed inside since it was insanely hot outside. The pool helped, but only so much.

Thursday, June 23, 2005


The company I work for is changing the computer system and, as some may know, it's quite hectic. Well, for one department anyway. I'm playing the waiting game at the moment. Just waiting for when the chaos makes it's way to me. Not that I'm looking forward to it, mind you. I'll be training sales reps on how to look up info in an entirely different way, not to mention keep my work caught up while learning the system myself! Oh Joy...

I was doing some research online a few days ago and actually felt assured that I wasn't completely alone with some ttc issues.
A little backstory: Stopped bcp in January and haven't had my cycle resume the way it's supposed to. Basically, AF hasn't shown in 6 1/2 months! To some that may seem great, but when you're trying to have a baby - well then it just sucks!
I've seen my OB about 5 times already this year and she thinks it's hypothalamic amenorrhea (HA for short). OB had me try the progesterone challenge and still nothing happened. I've lost track of how many days it's been, I'm counting months!

Had a first appointment with an RE, who didn't really do anything! She told me to gain 20 pounds, quit exercising completely, and go back on bcp. Well, those first two things won't happen! I walked out of that office ticked off that after reading my chart for 5 minutes and talking with me for 10 that she had the nerve to be so damn pushy. I guess she figures that by the time someone comes in to an RE, they're in a rush to have kids, etc. Don't get me wrong, I'm not feeling any younger, but it was just too much! Too much to think about, too much money being spent on office visits, too much explaining to do to my boss for all of those office visits, too much waiting, just too damn much of everything (and not enough of what I want)!

So while I was doing all of this reading, I checked what my weight range was, nutritional sites and read TONS more about HA.

I'm 5'6 and 124 - totally within the normal weight range. As for exercise, I do a combination run/fast walk for 3 miles 5x a week. That could be too much, I don't know.
Since seeing the RE, and going through the research I've found, I'm cutting my workouts to every other day. We'll see how that goes for now. I start those damn pills on Sunday. Don't know what the point is other than to see if AF does come. I figure that she will since bcp are synthetic hormones and that seems to be the root of the problem anyway.

What bothers me is that all of my bloodwork is coming back normal. The *only* thing that stands out (to me and my OB) is that my estrogen is low. It's still within the normal range, but on the low end. Even still, what the hell is going on with my body?!

How fitting that I titled today's entry as waiting! I initially thought about how it's been calm in my area at work and I was waiting for the chaos to ensue. Now, though, the title seems to fit about what I'm going through outside of work.

Ugh. I am not a patient person. I hate waiting.

Saturday, June 18, 2005

CD's have taken over!!!

So we, well more like I, have embarked on a project of creating some space in our home office. We have 3 of these long rubbermaid under bed containers full of cd's in their cases and I got a pickle up my ass to condense them somehow. Anyway, went to Target and bought those cd wallets that holds 200+ cd's and HOLY CRAP if one of them isn't almost fluking full! I only got through one of those containers! Geez, we have a lot of music.
It was cool, though, because I'd forgotten how much we have and what a wide range too.

What was somewhat like a trip down memory lane (cheezy, I know, but it's true) is when I was going through the cd's I made myself. I have some of the first ones I ever made and it was funny to see what songs are on them, but also how much of a novice I was. There are some disks that only have 12 seconds of a song, not the entire song title, that kind of thing.

I can't wait to go through some of those cd's and see what's on them. Mainly because I didn't make print outs of the song lists!

The quest continues...

Friday, June 17, 2005

It's only taken a what?

WYSIWYG Posted by Hello
So I've finally gotten off my rear and started this. Blame it on finishing my BA degree, work upgrading the system, or shear plain laziness. Does it really matter? I think not. At least, not this late at night. Anyway, more will come. Abiento!