Struggle is my name-O

struggle n 1: an energetic attempt to achieve something; "getting through the crowd was a real struggle"; "he fought a battle for recognition" [syn: battle] 2: an open clash between two opposing groups (or individuals); "the harder the conflict the more glorious the triumph"--Thomas Paine; "police tried to control the battle between the pro- and anti-abortion mobs" [syn: conflict, battle] 3: strenuous effort; "the struggle to get through the crowd exhausted her" v 1: make a strenuous or labored effort; "She struggled for years to survive without welfare"; "He fought for breath" [syn: fight] 2: to exert strenuous effort against opposition; "he struggled to get free from the rope" 3: climb awkwardly, as if by scrambling [syn: clamber, scramble, shin, shinny, skin, sputter] 4: be engaged in a fight; carry on a fight; "the tribesmen fought each other"; "Siblings are always fighting" [syn: fight] Seems that summarizes this year so far. Practically everything I want to accomplish comes with the price of having to scrape, claw, grunt, and STRUGGLE! Meanwhile, others get what they want just be speaking the words: "I want to have a baby." - 2 weeks later, they're pregnant "I want a new house." - 1 month later they're moving "I'm tired of this job. I'm going to try something else." - They get an interview in 2 days and 3 weeks later they're in a new position that pays $15,000 more annually. I know that "life isn't fair", but Karma could cut J and I a break. Give us what we want without having to fight so fucking hard for it! Some can argue that having to work for it will make us appreciate it more - HOWEVER - we'll appreciate any good fortune that comes our way. I can say that because it's been a long time since we've caught a break. A very long time. I think I reek of desperation. So be it.